I want to break through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know if it's a terrible thing to say that I'm annoyed, frustrated, and upset with things that are going on here. Between dealing with some co-workers that I really don't understand, dealing with home life, and having to face myself, I'd say I'm feeling pretty discouraged. As in, the courage has been taken from me, or I've lost it. Now I'm looking for it to be restored, for someone or something to put courage back into me. Looking for that hope because this world around me has been trying to hammer me down, keep me from being who I am. Finding myself at every turn having to fight something different. Crash against this wall one more time and hope to break through. Failed so many times before. But I think this wall is getting weaker and it's going to come down. How much longer I can push is the question. If I can be encouraged, that can happen. So, where does that come from where you're in the middle of nowhere? The only thing that you can still find, even in the middle of nowhere, is a power higher than yourself. That's my take on the issue now.

"Tears fall from the shameless.
Shelter me,
guide me to the edge of the water!"

This may seem so out of character for me, but I'm listening to Dream Theater right now: On the Back of Angels. Am I focusing on the words? Not really. But sometimes I need that extra drive, something that's somewhere between passionate, angry, reflective, and "I've had enough of all this." So let me just say that I've had enough of all this.

Facing myself
trying to face them
trying to find the meaning
trying to hear her voice
trying to find The words
looking for I AM.
Caught between the bridges,
don't burn them down.
Break me or heal me.
I'm still.
                                           Here's a random video for no reason:

                                            Oh, yeah, and Happy Valentine's Day!!!!!!!