It's that time, that season when everything seems to be up in the air and what's supposed to be summer feels more like the start of spring. And I stare into fields of buckwheat, corn, and other grains I'm unable to identify. This evokes memories of home- the mountains and streams we once visited as children in the Crowsnest Pass. Going to grandma and grandpa's for the summer. I gave them a call yesterday, even though it was already two in the morning here (something like quarter to ten in Alberta). What I got was an answering machine. That was nostalgic, too. Answering machines. If I used a home phone, I'd have one of those, too. Then like we did as teens, try to come up with something smart or funny to say. Well, back to the point.
It's too much for me to say I'm longing for home. But I am eager for a change. I've been the fool. I am the fool. The fool is the one who keeps doing the same thing and expecting a different result. Les Brown told me that. Well, not personally, but I heard it in his speech. He was talking to me. So I've got to work toward change. That's not easy for me, or for any of us. Habits run deep and die hard. But "laziness brings on deep sleep." The book of Proverbs told me that. I don't want to sleep for the rest of my life. I want to live so incredibly that some days I may take a step back, look at my life, and wondering if it's all a dream because who could imagine such endeavors, such adventures, such ambitions?!
Well, wanting and doing are two totally different things. What I'm DOING right now is writing these thoughts because I want to put into words what my heart and mind have been feeling. Essentially, I first want to figure out what I want. That, I can tell you maybe only half or even less. I will protect my dreams from those who would shoot them down, who would destroy them. People who don't believe in possibilities and always show others the way to the wall, not to the door. I'd like someone to show me to the door, but it seems that sometimes we have to just take anything we have, any tools we can find, and make it. Cut through the wall and make a way through. It may take some measurements and preparation, but it's not impossible. It may require help from others. Then we should not be afraid to ask. And if it can't be done, we should realize that sometimes walls are there to protect us from what's on the other side. Like dragons...or...tigers...or......
someone, something that wants to trample you over. Hey, if the wall is long and wide, maybe we should find another spot where we can start drilling, start cutting in.
I'm looking to get a special certification now, but due to being in Japan, there are a lot of walls. A lot of obstacles. Just do it online. Yeah, that's what I'm aiming to do. But I'm still waiting to hear back from several organizations. So what's my problem? I may be using the wrong tools. E-mailing may not be as effective as just calling. I see. I was using a Philips screwdriver when I should've been using a Robertson. Help me out, Robby!
If the next door opens up and I see what I'm hoping to see, then it will be time to re-unite with old friends and be with family once again. As for now, I'll be outside with my Sky Map, looking at stars, wondering if you might have seen what I've seen recently. Up there. Maybe this is what we share.
It's too much for me to say I'm longing for home. But I am eager for a change. I've been the fool. I am the fool. The fool is the one who keeps doing the same thing and expecting a different result. Les Brown told me that. Well, not personally, but I heard it in his speech. He was talking to me. So I've got to work toward change. That's not easy for me, or for any of us. Habits run deep and die hard. But "laziness brings on deep sleep." The book of Proverbs told me that. I don't want to sleep for the rest of my life. I want to live so incredibly that some days I may take a step back, look at my life, and wondering if it's all a dream because who could imagine such endeavors, such adventures, such ambitions?!
Well, wanting and doing are two totally different things. What I'm DOING right now is writing these thoughts because I want to put into words what my heart and mind have been feeling. Essentially, I first want to figure out what I want. That, I can tell you maybe only half or even less. I will protect my dreams from those who would shoot them down, who would destroy them. People who don't believe in possibilities and always show others the way to the wall, not to the door. I'd like someone to show me to the door, but it seems that sometimes we have to just take anything we have, any tools we can find, and make it. Cut through the wall and make a way through. It may take some measurements and preparation, but it's not impossible. It may require help from others. Then we should not be afraid to ask. And if it can't be done, we should realize that sometimes walls are there to protect us from what's on the other side. Like dragons...or...tigers...or......
someone, something that wants to trample you over. Hey, if the wall is long and wide, maybe we should find another spot where we can start drilling, start cutting in.
I'm looking to get a special certification now, but due to being in Japan, there are a lot of walls. A lot of obstacles. Just do it online. Yeah, that's what I'm aiming to do. But I'm still waiting to hear back from several organizations. So what's my problem? I may be using the wrong tools. E-mailing may not be as effective as just calling. I see. I was using a Philips screwdriver when I should've been using a Robertson. Help me out, Robby!
If the next door opens up and I see what I'm hoping to see, then it will be time to re-unite with old friends and be with family once again. As for now, I'll be outside with my Sky Map, looking at stars, wondering if you might have seen what I've seen recently. Up there. Maybe this is what we share.
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